When I was swallowed wholly

My mind is on a constant flux
days I eat I sleep and repeat
Yet, lingering thoughts are always here to stay with me

The thoughts of future, life and happiness
roam the vast canvas of my mind
at times painting beautiful pictures
and Most times not.

I grudgingly admit that this is a part of my life
Like high tides they push me a little back
Today was one of those days
Where my mind took over me
Where it  swallowed me wholly
Today was one of those days


Here what I was was not me anymore
I didn't recognize the reflection
was it my far cousin?
But it wasn't
 this was me
Today was one of those days


Where the paintings on my mind
took over me
where I turn into something
I was not proud to be
Today was one of those days
Where I was swallowed wholly


It is such a taboo to talk about metal well being. It is such a taboo to admit that its hard to live with anxiety. It does not make you less competent. It does however at times take over you. Those time always remember just like you dealt with it yesterday you will deal with it today too. Each day you get stronger.